Fun when Busy!

I thrive on activity. The more I do the better I feel. I strive to make each day as full as possible. However the interesting part about it is sometimes the focus of my activity. I stray.... I fall back into old habits of checking social media, biting my fingernails, looking at my hands when I type. All things that distract me from my goals and purpose.
The distractions are sometimes welcomed because the work is not fun all the time. Cold Calling sometimes is a tough job that has little fruit. (It can also be the most exhilarating thing  on the planet!) So is life... distractions and focused work pulling against each other for the share of your most precious resource, TIME.

God grant me the strength to fight distraction and focus on my pursuits. Justify my cause and help me to be enthralled in my everyday task. The work of the soil will not be easy and the workers are few but the rewards are immeasurable. AMEN!

Feel Great.... But real sore

My mind is very clear today! My body is very sore! I know that it will take a couple of weeks to really get this thing going. The exercise is helping with the lack of sleep. I feel like I need less sleep when ever I have done a hard workout. My sleep is deeper and more restful when I get it in between baby Elle's tears.

The push ups and sit ups that I will do on the hour every working hour is going to help workout the soreness and keep my mind stable and focused.

I am considering the elimination of Facebook and Twitter from my Chrome browser at work. The ease of which I can simply click these is where I get in trouble.

My keyboard skills are another thing that I am going to work on this year. I want to not look at my hands while typing while not making as many mistakes!

My list of challenges is growing in purpose and detail. Lord continue to give me strength and wisdom as I challenge myself to take on these challenges. Please take the mental roadblocks down and give me the hard work. Thank you fore guidance and the ability to do great things. AMEN!

Behind

I feel like I cannot get past the mental block today! I have been in a funk for 2 weeks. I think that the holidays have me preoccupied with all my friends and family that are not working so I am procrastinating. The refocus I need will come as I begin to feel overwhelmed. The overwhelming has begun to creep in and tell me that I am behind.
THE VICIOUS CIRCLE I am in must end now. In a few minutes I will take lunch, when I return I will be fresh and focused on the tasks at hand. I will not let myself be deterred from my goals!

Earlier today I attempted to delete this blog as a sign of frustration that it takes time to be a writer. I must continue to focus on the writing and typing as I continue to grow in my abilities. Personal development must be an every day goal and ambition. The tortoise wins the race. Be better today than you were yesterday!

Give me focus and strength today to face my fears and challenges head on! AMEN!

God Provides!

I have been down on myself for a little while because things have not gone as fast as I thought. I even jumped a little on a few things in anticipation of things hitting (Dave Ramsey would be very angry). Having put stress on myself and my family we really responded and got back on a plan! It has been super tough but it has brought Kelly and I closer.

Then this weekend.... We got a check that will allow us to get in front of our debt! We are going to make it! I feel better and it shows in everything I do! God gives us everything we need even when we create holes to be drug out of!

Thank you God for showing Kelly and I that you are strong when we are weak. Thank you for providing when we are desperate! Give us strength to stay on the right path and rely solely on you! AMEN!

Motivation

Just read an article on motivation! Very interesting ideas on how to trick yourself into doing things. I guess trick may be a strong word but it is implied in the article.
I have made real progress in regards to leading the Family in budgeting, weight loss, and work production. The real key is the motivation of game playing! My competitive juices get going when I make things a game and compete. However the competition raging in me is interesting from the aspect of winning. If I win the competition I feel great but if I lose I have to rationalize myself. The rationalization is the part that is dangerous.
Having high self-confidence is important in the games I have chosen but starting in a position of weakness is difficult. The game leads to highs and lows that are sometimes difficult to push through. I may have taken on a few too many personal and professional projects for my level of attention. The reality is there is no turning back!

I will put my faith in God and let him lead me!
I will put Kelly, Addison and Elle in their proper place in my life!
I will continue to work out every day!
I will continue to develop myself personally/professionally!
I will continue to lead my family out of the darkness of obligation!
I will make life long friends on the phone today! (Weird to think about that possibility!)
I will.......

How to focus?

The question that keeps me up at night is "How to Focus?" Some people have almost extraordinary ability to tune out the world organize and simply do. This is my greatest struggle. Staying on task and keeping my nose to the grindstone.
I have been able to take baby steps in training my mind on getting things done like: Everything becomes a task or a calendar event in outlook, a timer to structure time per task, and increasing my inner monologue. Yes, the third one sounds crazy and maybe it is but it helps me stay on task.
This blog also helps to gather my thoughts and discipline myself.

Yesterday, I did not feel well all day because I got out of rhythm because I ignored my morning routine. My whole day was thrown off and my focus was not there. Today I feel great because I am back in rhythm!

Goal updates-
237.2 today WOO HOO
Almost done with Insurance Commander
production way up on CC's and X's
Kelly and I are examining every dollar on our way to more secure financial footing.
Budget round 1 done!

Scheduling Priorities

Today I have to do something I never thought I would do. I RSVP'd to attend an event for my dad but in order to do that I must miss Addison's Christmas program. For sure an interesting conundrum. I do not feel like I am choosing a person, I feel like I am ranking importance. Addison will have dozens on programs and recitals for me to attend but my dad will only be triumphantly rewarded for his service to Dyersburg once.

The bank event is a real closing of a chapter for the Edwards' in Dyersburg. The magnitude and importance of the event cannot be understated. I do feel bad for missing the program but that is just the way life goes!

God grant me wisdom to know and understand exactly what the right decisions are in my everyday life. Then grant me the serenity to live with any hurt feelings because of those decisions. AMEN!